pretty Nina.

A year ago today, My beautiful grandmother decided to go be with our beautiful creator. Nina was the most elegant, thoughtful, caring woman I have ever met. We love to tell stories of Nina and of the silly things she would say to make us laugh. Every time we were at their house in South Carolina, Nina would have the air conditioning pumping because she was always so hot. Because of this she kept lots and lots of blankets around and would always throw one on you if you were sitting on the couch. And even if you were not hungry, Nina would make you a sandwich just because she never wanted anyone to be unhappy. Last year as we all gathered around the living room looking at old pictures and sharing our favorite Nina stories, I was reminded of mine, the Thanksgiving where Nina watched a little to much 20/20 and in effort to stay current on what's going on in the world, she would strike up conversations with her grandkids about meth labs. Nina, you are my heart and I love and miss you. I can't wait to sing and dance with you when we meet again in heaven.

home is where the heart is.

I am currently anxiously waiting for the time to come for me to head home for a few days. Although I am loving my life here at school, a break is much needed just so I can do homework, take a bath in a actual bath tub, sleep for more then 6 hours in one session, and eat food that does not come from the caf. So on that note these are 10 things that makes my heart jump for home.

1. Seeing my family

2. Catching up on my magazines, and reality tv

3. Drinking coffee from JC bean

4. Spending time with old wonderful friends

5. Driving my sweet little tucson

6. Mom's pancakes

7. Going over to Meredith's and watching CSI

8. taking walks in the harbor

9. Laying in my sisters bed telling her what's going on in life

10. Spending the whole day in my jammies

Today I am missing.

These are my two best friends Alyx and Meredith. They are my heart.

Look how they shine for you

At 12 in the morning, we gathered down by the ocean to experience something truly magical. As 8 dear friends ventured down the dark cliffs, we came together to watch meteors shoot across the clear dark night. We huddled together under blankets, we listened to music, and we talked as if we have known each other for years. As our voices filled the air, I pointed out the fact that these meteors will not be returning to us for another 30 years. I started to think about where I will be in 30 years. Who will I be? Will my dreams be achieved? Will I be happy? As these thoughts filled my head, I stopped and realized that no matter what I will be like in 30 years when I watch the meteors return back, I will always have my memory of when 8 dear friends huddled together underneath the stars and watched something magical happen. Even though my life will change, I will always have sweet, beautiful, enchanting moments. And for now, that is all I need to know.

In the Mornin' Dee Dee

When I was young, I would wake up each morning run to my older sister and sing to her. The song she heard time after time was in the Mornin' Dee Dee. Know one knows where I learned it or how I gave my sister the name of Dee Dee since her name is Erin. But everyday Dee Dee heard this tune and everyday she patiently listened and loved me for my song. Together we have danced to the beatles, adventured in places unknown, laughed uncontrollably after singing I will always love you as loud as we can, and have supported each other when times get rough. Erin you are my best friend and I love you Dee Dee

And the tree was happy.

And after a long time

the boy came back again.

"I am sorry, Boy,"

said the tree," but I have nothing

left to give you -

My apples are gone."

"My teeth are too weak

for apples," said the boy.

"My branches are gone,"

said the tree. " You

cannot swing on them - "

"I am too old to swing

on branches," said the boy.

"My trunk is gone, " said the tree.

"You cannot climb - "

"I am too tired to climb" said the boy.

"I am sorry," sighed the tree.

"I wish that I could give you something....

but I have nothing left.

I am just an old stump.

I am sorry...."

"I don't need very much now," said the boy.

"just a quiet place to sit and rest.

I am very tired."

"Well," said the tree, straightening

herself up as much as she could,

"well, an old stump is good for sitting and resting

Come, Boy, sit down. Sit down and rest."

And the boy did.

And the tree was happy.

The giving tree by Shel Silverstein

turn that frown upside down.

Throughout the day everything kept going wrong. Woke up late, locked myself out of my dorm, a goodbye to a friend, just one thing after the next. I was about ready to call it a day and climb into bed and just wait for tomorrow. But as I was in the middle of my daily crisis, my dear friend Chelsea called me and decided to get me off campus. So I put my coat back on and jumped into her car. We ventured to Ocean Beach to the farmers market, and I fell in love. There was so many people, yummy food, art, and a girl playing the accordion .We bought some pumpkin bread, chocolate, lemonade, and colorful daisies, and like that my awful day went away.

Sweet lil merg.

I met sweet lil merg when we were freshman, out of complete awkwardness I asked her to eat lunch with me at our high school retreat ( I was new, and barely knew anyone) Merg accepted and together we feasted on gross camp hamburgers and had an uncomfortable lunch. However since that day way back in 2005 we have have shared a friendship that is like no other, and we have spent close to every second together. Meredith is one of the most dearest people in my life, and I am truly best to have her as my best friend. Meredith is my better half and no matter what the case is she is always there for me. I could not imagine life without her. She is the weirdest most funniest most beautiful person I know. So lil merg this one is for you. I know that you are going to be my best friend forever, and one day we are going to be old ladies who do to water aerobics in flowered caps and hit the slots in vegas. I love and miss you lady.

Yes.